Moment of Truth...

Entry: November 13, 2012 3:58 PM (Throwback)

...I think that at some point in everyone's life, especially in a woman's life there is something that brings that woman to her "Moment of Truth"....some clumsily stumble upon it and others walk right into it ever so gracefully. I've noticed these life-changing epiphanies happen to those around me and admire how some friends, family and pageant sisters have taken life's bull by the horns and stood in their truth. The funny thing about this is that for so long I sat on the sidelines, simply as an onlooker never to realize that there were some things about myself that needed to be awakened/altered and even deleted.

I will admit that I have sometimes fallen into the trap of thinking "I have it all together" but in reality it has been very far from the case. Over the past month I have developed an even deeper desire to reach the core of who I am and discover what my mission is on this Earth. Recently, I am just beginning to peel back the many layers of this onion and see myself in ways that I never quite owned up to before. Some good, some bad! Throughout this process there have been many signs (which I believe are from my heavenly Father) that have been set in my path to show me the corrections that need to be made in my life. The number 1 truth for me has been keeping my faith and in doing so....also walking in faith. Truth number 2 is to embody consistency (in everything and with everyone).

Today, I watched a short clip on Naomi Campbell's interview with Oprah (from 2010) and the words that hit home were; "allowing the external to mirror the internal"....these few words truly touched me. In so many areas of life I've tried to cross all T's in my educational, career and pageantry endeavors that I have most often failed to dot the I's of the endeavors that are most important: my the internal beliefs, values and the effort that stems from being true to myself. On several occasions it has been difficult to separate what matters on the surface -vs- what truly matters....I certainly am not foreign to thinking that a want is a need and simply wanting what I want because I want it. However, I’m beginning to learn the difference and will hold myself accountable in taking the steps necessary to walk in my truth.

I've also realized that with every day my truth in that moment will sometimes change which will simply be a sign of growth and maturity, yet as long as I’m embracing the core of my being and trying to live up to the biblical standards of a Woman (that I read about so much), I'm on the right track. Truth 3 is learning that sometimes I need to "shut up"...verbally and mentally, often times my words or over-analytical thoughts will create a mountain out of a mole-hill....this of course isn't helping me or those around me. Truths 4 and 5 are the hardest for me but I believe that they will be the most beneficial as I continue my journey of self-discovery....as one dear to me has put it: "forgive yourself of your past and move forward.....also, learn to LISTEN". I know that in making a conscious effort to do these things I will slowly start to see a release of pain or regrets and in listening I will be better equipped to make the best decisions. In doing so, I will suddenly be open to receive what God is trying to present to me in all areas of my life. 

I know that I have some work ahead of me, but I'm surely stepping into my moment (in a cute pair of pink pumps of course *wink).

I hope that this in some way inspires you to walk in your truth as well and be unafraid to let certain stubborn guards down in order to really live your best life.

From my heart to yours,

Candace